hahhh hahhhh...(how much does she hate me what does she plan..)
And forget this dreary self obsessive misery music... the world's been dancing to since...well first there was their nutjob brexit...
though it started before then, even she the Portuguese ... dying, fifteen years ago, she could not even say goodbye to me, her dedicated fiancée (cant be bothered to ...oops Oggle has it in autocorrect the manual version...as i play with words... as the Romanian could never understand...or was that the yank...? i forget theyre so forgettable ....'cept for one...
had to run away and sulk before dying...
And then we have a lot more sulking ever since. Except in "welcome to Boliviahhhhhhhhhelo SHeeemon..."
And a tremendous amount of sulking of late.
My really truly poignant pics revving up that spring. The most sunny perfect spring ever...and so so quiet...and full of real energy. Off every morning on my old bicycle to get away from her-just-in case.... she wants her money... she never earned.
Because earning i know what the definition is.
And every day for years, well except a few weeks one sad spring, someone used for their perverted ends.... in the saddest perverted end in history. (the editor of The Independent on Tomorrow knew as i trust him...or did... but then he too is English and ... as the Portuguese said "we have a saying, 'for the English to see.'.. and the context is not very nice it means in the context, as our whole people understands, they only see the surface want to see the surface, and all below is rotten to the core..."
It's always the same.
Every day. SO i better get proving it with some not cheery images that nevertheless every sparkle of silver lining can always be seen somewhere, even in the next image in the line... there is a sequence that's all i know,... and i do my work most diligently, always... that is what failing and tripping up over the finishing line and ending up in the abyss thats on the way to hell, means.... all you have is do your simplest well understood tasks, well. No matter what.... even if she never comes back (here) i was focused into knowing what i always knew. I bet Baby Figs would get me arrested if i told her that... "thank you...you proved my point...even you not one of you ever ever can ever be trusted to mean what you...say..."
i need an assistant! ...helpmeet - a rare thing, a Google definition that is lovely and maybe even enhances the true meaning which is neutral "but by no means uncritical" if my memory serves me well... perfection and smileythong.... critique with a smile... the key to life though i would like to subcontract my one big question i ad nuf.... thinking. For a lifetime...
My i have a lot to roll out in time... and shall love every second of it
h yes i have an image that sadly i must criticise.. the lady who fakes being a hurt lost Nomad.... there has never ever been a more wrong film - i know i have lived that way, and i study and participate in very societal argument about how bad it is...and why it happens...
But they are all fake. Only alone or a deux out on the open road - a deux ideally for winter warmth.... are you aside, from everything you really need to be aside from no matter what....as if even BF's 'mental health' is so damaged.... only aside can you live....when ask me all else are actual walking dead....and in pain. Always...god its so boring....anywhere but that...
Last tune linked, the tone the rhythm you need to have in the head whilst scanning my pages.... or if you want the funny version me and my actualy lovely best friend "when i heard it my my imediately apart from thinking bugger hiding that 35 years its as good as tangled....I cannot not ever listen again without imagining your so beautiful chubby builder face ....falling face down into your plate with that so paradise smile you always have lurking....no matter what, and no matter what racial halfbreed "you vcannee ever be a propper black man and get diversity tokens " and sexual and fattist and wifeist slurs we try with all our might to upset each other these last 18 months and w dimply cannot ever even ruffle a hair... which is as we know the moment we met is of course ...love....always... no matter what... "
